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today i decided, i wanted to write something . I began thinking about the past, all the problems and different circumstances that haunt my memories. i began seeing there was more than one of me when i look back at those memories. the more i looked, the more i realized. i have split personalities. the first is my original self i would on guess. the other is a cold and angry person who takes over but i began to realize he seems to fade out when ever specific events take place and only surface during common circumstances. the years in high school i realized this other self had merged and took over for the most part. now i see been able to actually find this other self. i realized there was a event in my passed that brought this split personality. i have always thought there was another self but never actually interacted with my own personalities. i have suffered from memoires lose and un normal behavior. the realization that i seen and interacted with people without remembering, or seeing the events but not knowing why i was acting so different i believe i found my answer.

 

i found a new question which one am i

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The boy with book Tied memories

There once was a boy no matter what can't forget the past every little detail every little word every object every mention tied to a bad memory Would bring back the memory emotions in a flood changing how he was changing everything about what he was doing with a matter of seconds from being happy to anger like a flick of a switch he cant control his emotions trapped by this in the cycle constantly changing constantly moving constantly Crying never forgetting The pain and happiness sorrow all thrown together in one second one hit The boy would always no matter what have fun with every day and then on days when these books would fall on top of him buried him deep in the motion Books written over and over again by time emotions attached into the very depths of the book never be forgotten always to be Re-lived 
One day he set having a normal conversation happy with his girlfriend Till the subject of one thing One Trigger a book a book with ties to another book The mention froze time of this one word this one trigger this one book in his mind everything frozen he walks to the bookshelf with every book which created him which taught him which was stored in his head his life his memories his knowledge only one on this bookshelf miles high With no end in sight with no roof nothing but the openness of his mind This one book he taken off the shelf and brought down thousands of books on his head Now buried you can see The strings the time the books together so very thin but was so much strain so much power they brought down everything onto him This boy overtaken drowned by these memory these books had changed him completely in seconds as time started again he became aggressive mean yelling bringing up the past witch just like a knife stabbing in the hart leaving her alone to go of alone to breed his petty emotions unable to stand them one day after this happening one of the many times he died in an accident but his emotions swinging so violently out of control could have stopped this from happening everyone not understanding his life with this curse  they wrote the death as  suicide never caring to look out of there own world to see the troubled mind witch to him a living nightmare these books tied with memories crushed this boy till his mind and body could not take it the boy who could relive everything he had tried so Badly to hide if only one person understood if one single person tried to help he be hear to day
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